Abandoned By Bears - True Colours

What the fuck is this?
The words you put in my head
Remind me from time to time
How did you manage to mess me up like this
Sometimes I stray around a little in the middle then fade away

And for me it's hard to keep my head above water
And whatever you do, don't you follow my footsteps like you used to
Cause I just can't let you make me fade away again

I'll take it all, make it all just like you wanted
It kept on pushing me and tearing me up

Learn your place
Stop trying to guilt trip me into thinking that I did something wrong
Even when I tried
Even when I tried my best and gave you everything I had

Even if I see in black and white
Your true colors won't fade away
You stutter-stepped outside of your boundaries
Your presence surrounds me again

I will give up everything just to keep you from moving forward
And it feels like everything is empty because of you
It's a disgrace what you did, what you did

Searching through my mind
And there's nothing left for me to find
You led me on, and you're all wrong
If you think that I will let this go

You turned your back and walked away
From everything that's surrounding me
And I restrained all my thoughts
Don't you come back to me when u find it all fall apart

And as the colors begin to fade
I find it hard to stay the same
When I'm forever bound to this frame of mind
This frame of mind you put me in

Can you hear me?
Dead mind, you only exist in a place I forgot about

I tried my best but I'm losing faith
In what's giving me comfort
You found a way despite your past mistakes
And I'm still bound to lose my ground